The Last Summer Holiday

It is very easy to take summer holidays for granted especially if you’ve had one every year for your whole life so far. When we are studying, we expect to get a holiday in the summer, at Christmas and at Easter. I certainly still have the impression that summer is a time of fun and relaxation, however it has just dawned on me that these summers have been counting down and I might have just enjoyed my last proper summer holiday.

The amount of holiday I have been getting for summer has been gradually increasing since I was in year 11 and doing my GCSEs. Before year 11, I had about 6 weeks off for summer, after year 11 I got 8 weeks and then at university I almost got 16 weeks! This has allowed me to learn to really be able to wind down during the summer and not have to worry about anything at all. It really has been very enjoyable and I feel that it only gets better every year.

It has dawned on me, however, looking at the my work contract now and seeing that my total number of holidays for the whole year barely even totals the length of the summer holiday I got in primary school. It’s not a permanent job, so I could still have one last proper summer holiday after I graduate, but there is also the chance that I could get a job straight after I graduate.

I am glad to say that I think I have made the most out of my summer holidays, especially the more recent ones when I get to see some friends outside of university. Of course, I wish I still had some more summer holidays to enjoy; which is a possibility if I get into a career in education. I do also now understand why people say being a student is the best period of your life. There are many other advantages, but one of them is just the amount of holidays we get: last year my holidays totalled up to about 6 months!

As a student, I have always looked forward to working because I just think it’s an easier life with no homework, coursework, or exams. This is true in some respects, but it also means less holiday. Perhaps it all actually works out though, because the amount of time we spend on homework, coursework and revision as a student actually means that we can sometimes work non-stop during term time. I always then tell myself that I deserve the long holiday I get afterworks.

On the other hand, for me at the moment, I have found that I do not need to worry or think about anything work related after I get home. So working is a lot less stressful and intensive for me at the moment compared to university, but there are disadvantages like having to wake up early every day and work all day. It does make me wonder how I managed to do it in primary school and most of secondary.

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20

I think that turning 20 years old is very scary. It’s an age at which I can no longer consider myself a child as I have done for my whole life. So much can happen when someone is in their 20s as well: finally finish studying and start working, get married, or even start a family. These things I haven’t even properly considered during my teenage years, but I know that I will soon have to seriously consider at least one of these things.

I’ll admit that my teens have felt like they have lasted for quite a long time now. In fact it feels like I have spent my whole life as a teenager and it gets quite difficult to remember anything before. However I have noticed that the past couple of years have gone by especially fast. I think this is because as I get older I also get busier and so more of my time is being occupied, which does make it seem like time is going by faster. I just hope that this effect does not continue or even increase as I start working in my 20s, because I want to have time to just be able to enjoy life as it is.

I feel like if I could go back to when I was 11 or 12 that I would try to enjoy my teenage years more than I might’ve actually done. But then I’m sure many people would want to go back to their teenage years if they could. It was a period of time when you can live life relatively carefree and be able to try a lot of new things. As I’ve mentioned in a previous post: as a person gets older, the decisions they make tend to become more important and have a bigger effect on their life; and so I think there is a weight that comes with being 20 which is responsibility. It is as if the decisions I make now can have a large rippling effect on the rest of my life, but I’m sure a lot of risks will still have to be taken.

As a teenager, there are not many high risk decisions that have to be made as most of them are made by the people who look after us. However when it comes to decisions like ‘Should I take a job in another country?’ or ‘Is he/she the perfect person for me?’ they can carry quite a bit of pressure on making the right choice. I guess it’s because these decisions can have larger repurcussions on the rest of our lives.

I am also excited about turning 20 though. Although I will miss being a child and a lot of the things I can’t do anymore due to my age, I know that there are many exciting opportunities ahead in my 20s. At the moment it is like there are many doors ahead of me that I can take, some are more difficult to open than others but I know that if I work hard enough then my 20s can be a very rewarding decade.

 

 

Change

Many people fear change; fearing the unknown and wanting things to stay the way they are used to. Unfortunately change is inevitable and happens to almost everything and everyone.

I usually welcome change. I see it as an opportunity for innovation to occur: opening doors to achieve more and be better; however this is not always the case. Sometimes being accustomed to the same thing over a long period of time will make change sound disruptive or even unnecessary. ‘If it ain’t broke, don’t fix it’ is a phrase that is used quite often in this context, and although this is true for many situations, it doesn’t allow the opportunity for something to develop and improve.

The universe has shown us that change happens naturally. Not much, if anything at all, stays the same forever. Although I usually try my best to welcome change in many situations there is one type of change that I am most afraid of. That is, when people change. This is because people can change in a way that is unpredictable and on a large magnitude. Some people change more dramatically than others, but rarely does someone stay as exactly the same person as they were five or ten years ago.

I just think that it’s a shame sometimes; how the person I once knew is no longer the same. I have experienced this enough times to now worry about almost everyone I know changing, but I worry the most about how I have changed. I understand that it’s inevitable that everyone changes and that change is not always negative. In fact there are many people who change for the better, however, I am friends with people because I value their personality or their core values. When that changes in a person then sometimes it seems as if I have to start again with them; get to know them again.

I think the biggest period of change in someone’s life is during their teenage years. Not only physical change but mental. I have mentioned before in a previous post that the teenage years are a time to try new things and find out who we really are. This can open new doors and take us in a completely new direction; change who we are completely.

I think I’m quite a nostalgic person, so I always wonder how parents accept the change in their children. Parents see the biggest change in a person: from being completely dependent on them to being a grown adult who no longer needs their parents. I guess there are some parents who find it difficult to accept, and are very protective of their children even when they are capable of being independent. If I am to become a parent I think that the most difficult part for me to accept will be to realise that my child is no longer a child.

I think that is also my problem when it comes to seeing the people around me change. I think I need to accept that change happens in everyone, for good and for bad. At the end of the day, even if they do not seem like the same person I first met, they are still the same person, but nature is just telling me that time has moved on and I need to as well.